Hi, I'm Momma

There was a bespeak inward fourth dimension where I felt sexy. I could (and often did) pass hours applying make-up inward novel together with interesting ways. The mornings were a fourth dimension for reading, coffee, opened upward cupboard doors, trying on shoes, but were spent, most often, sleeping. I went to college, had a job, friends who would invite me to bring together them for dinner after the Sun went down. There is a business office of me that remembers beingness indignant when a eating seat inward New Hampshire was already unopen at 10 pm.

The babies desire Momma's lap everytime I sit down down.
North Carolina Jan 2012

I had a conversation amongst a friend the other twenty-four hours most beingness a stay-at-home mom. Having worked upward until she had her twins, she said that what she misses the most is feeling witty. She said she misses the banter at her go place. It actually stuck amongst me. We discussed how y'all brand a joke amongst your wife together with it often falls on deaf ears. You are abode subsequently a long twenty-four hours together with desire to relax, a babe is crying, a basketball game game is on, someone is refusing to consume dinner, or y'all only discovered that y'all are, inward fact, coated inward spit up. With together with so much going on, y'all start dealing amongst the project at hand, ignoring or half-processing things that autumn inward the "it tin wait" category.

Today beingness Valentine's Day, I attempted to stride upward my appearance. I applied oculus liner, curled my hair, squeezed into pencil jeans, wore a lower-cut shirt. As a result, O dedicated his fourth dimension pulling my shirt opened upward the entire fourth dimension he was inward the sling. My three-year onetime complimented my efforts yesteryear running his chocolatey hands along my pilus line, "I similar your hair, Momma." By the fourth dimension westward arrived home, my hips were protesting the snug pants. My pilus was a disheveled mess together with I had snot together with babe dinner dried on my shoulder. The sexy feeling was non there. I flirted spell I iced the cake entirely to receive got him say, "What?" over the roar of tired 10-month olds. Flirting doesn't actually go when y'all are 1.) repeating yourself together with 2.) yelling your pick-up lines over screaming infants.

By the fourth dimension I crawl into bed at night, I'm non thinking most lingerie or candles. More than i time I receive got picked Cheerios out of my pilus earlier turning out the light. I dread staying upward besides belatedly because I never know what the nighttime volition bring. The nighttime I instruct inward bed at 12:30 am is the nighttime D has a bloody olfactory organ at 2:00 am or C comes downwardly amongst a mutual frigidness or O cuts a tooth. I usually flip through tomorrow's agenda before turning out the light, checking if I demand to go somewhere earlier 10 am or if an twenty-four hours of the month volition interfere amongst the babies' nap time. I essay to honour out from westward if he volition instruct abode when I usually hold off him or if he volition go late. I essay to retrieve if I did indeed position the meat inward the refrigerator to defrost and, if I forgot, what I volition brand instead (getting out of bed isn't an option). Often times the next twenty-four hours closely resembles the previous day, the same schedule, the same frustrations, and, regrettably enough, the same repast options.

While unpacking during this recent move, I carefully position away all my high heels. I fondly remembered buying each pair, the shoes I wore the nighttime westward proposed, my favorite "daily heels" (wait, heels when the sun is out?), the heels I wore amongst the wearing clothing westward liked together with so much. One dyad I debating moving to my "regular rotation shoes," deciding against it when I considered the babe sling. I even together with so ain these shoes; they even together with so fit. I receive got them at the top of my cupboard correct now where they hold off until I may maybe accept them down. There are nights, few together with far between, when I wearable a dry out build clean entirely wearing clothing (most recently, my anniversary). Right at nowadays I wearable kitten heels together with ballet flats, a form agency of proverb comfortable shoes. I've discovered a fondness for the classic aspect of Keds together with rolled jeans (go ahead, tell it. The "Mom Look." I know).



You tin honour me at Barnes together with Noble...
for storytime.
North Carolina Jan 2012

I practise miss someone call for me to proof-read an article for them or for my thought on a book. I miss long, heated debates over punctuation. I volition ever wishing I studied abroad earlier I got married. But I volition never regret the choices that receive got brought me to where I am. At the core, I am even together with so the soul I've ever been. There are parts of my personality that are missed on my immature children (i.e. a heavy sense of irony). Constantly introducing myself together with attempting to brand friends makes me experience similar the new girl, a seat I'm oftentimes inward because of my husband's career. The choices I've made together with the people right away surrounding me receive got challenged me, through no error of their own, to temporarily shelf or depict out diverse aspects of my personality. Some of these areas needed go (patience) together with around I would receive got liked to agree onto awhile longer (the mightiness to remain awake until midnight).

Today I may go wearing ballet flats to the park. This is a flavor inward my life where my focus is on the happenings inward my home, my husband's schedule, together with the needs of my children. But tomorrow... who knows? The lilac BCBG pumps may honour their agency dorsum on my feet.

The Road Not Taken

By Robert Frost

TWO roads diverged inward a yellowish wood,
And misfortunate I could non locomote both
And go i traveler, long I stood
And looked downwardly i as far as I could
To where it bent inward the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as only as fair,
And having perhaps the meliorate claim,
Because it was grassy together with wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them actually most the same,
And both that forenoon as lay
In leaves no stride had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the rootage for around other day!
Yet knowing how agency leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come upward back.
I shall go telling this amongst a sigh
Somewhere ages together with ages hence:
Two roads diverged inward a wood, together with I—
I took the i less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

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