Mommy holidays

I woke upward this morn after a long nighttime alongside babe #4. Everyone seems to intend he's teething, but I am non sure. I don't know why babe #4 is off, teething or a cold.

So after that nighttime I came out this morn to a kitchen laden alongside dishes. That isn't an exaggeration. I convey dishes on my stove top, piled inwards the sink, sitting inwards front end of the microwave. Last nighttime nosotros made cookies. And dinner. And applesauce. Dinner required every bowl in addition to blade of our nutrient processor, which is withal on the counter. Our kitchen is a mess.

Our children aren't eating. I brand them nutrient in addition to they don't consume it. After making room inwards our kitchen to brand breakfast, entirely i of them ate. I gave them whole grain breadstuff alongside cinnamon in addition to raisins, toasted alongside lots of butter on top. Eggs made to order. Yogurt alongside strawberries in addition to a banana to boot. Water, equally requested. Our oldest, of course, ate all his food, but left his dishes on the table. One of our toddlers ate his yogurt in addition to played alongside his egg for a chip acre shredding his bread. Our other toddler rearranged his plate in addition to spilled his yogurt all over the table. Most mornings I only give them a banana in addition to hence an hr subsequently they are complaining well-nigh beingness hungry. I was hoping to avoid that this morn past times feeding them foods they like, except all they ate out of a plate of "toddler food" was their banana. {Read: "Why create I feed our toddlers?"}

All through breakfast they argued over who's "team" they are on. Boy 1 in addition to Boy 2 are on the same team, but Boy three can't hold upward on their team. Boy three wants to hold upward on their team. They argued over it. Boy 1 in addition to Boy 2 tried sword fighting alongside yogurt spoons all through the meal. Boy three wanted to position all the nutrient he didn't desire to eat-- which was all of it-- on the tabular array instead of on his plate. Boy 2 sneezed in addition to covered himself alongside bubbling mucilaginous snot. While covered inwards snot standing past times the kitchen trash alongside Kleenex, he started unloading our trash tin of things I "accidentally" threw away. Of course of teaching said items were covered inwards egg shells in addition to java grounds, hence I had quite the fourth dimension cleaning upward the snot covered/trash covered toddler. The truthful cat discovered a rigid love of yogurt in addition to spent her fourth dimension jumping upward in addition to swatting at the children acre trying to consume their yogurt.

I convey some Christmas shopping to complete up. I haven't wrapped hardly whatever of our Christmas gifts. I'm trying non to stress out over the Christmas items that nosotros ordered weeks agone from Zulily that promised a Christmas delivery {where are they???}. I convey a kitchen to clean. H5N1 line of piece of employment solid to clean. Fights to pause upward betwixt our children. H5N1 fussy baby. I forgot to create advent calendars alongside the kids this year-- totally forgot. I gave myself a pilus cutting terminal nighttime because it has been hence long since I terminal had my pilus cutting in addition to I convey no view when I'll e'er notice the fourth dimension to learn dorsum inwards to the salon. 2 of our iv children are congested; 1 to a greater extent than seems to hold upward coming downward alongside it.

Sometimes I experience similar I have expectations inwards my hear of what identify unit of measurement life is all about. I learn this vision of our children inwards footie pajamas sitting nether the tree watching the Christmas develop in addition to flipping through Christmas books acre my married adult man in addition to I snuggle on the couch watching halt motion films. I tin experience a piddling overwhelmed when i man child is beating his blood brother alongside a Ravensburger puzzle in addition to some other is playing Minecraft on our tablet. This vacation flavor flew by. Where did all the fourth dimension go? There are hence many things I wanted to do. We withal haven't ridden a Christmas develop {don't they drib dead on running until New Years?}. We went caroling i time in addition to couldn't become to the side past times side i due to an ill-timed doctor's appointment. I can't assist but experience that nosotros must soak inwards this twelvemonth because side past times side twelvemonth my married adult man volition hold upward dorsum on a submarine and-- where? Out to sea? On shiftwork? Working? I don't know. I had the same feelings at Halloween {Read, "Mommy courage"}. As I write this weblog ship service i of our toddlers is next our other toddler around the line of piece of employment solid taking his toys in addition to mostly picking fights. Seriously, all they convey done since they got downward from breakfast is fight. "That my toy! He's touching me! He's sitting side past times side to me! He's looking at me! He's taking my toy!" Can't nosotros only bask Christmas? Can't nosotros only sing in addition to snuggle in addition to drinkable hot chocolate without counting who had how many cookies in addition to who is touching your napkin or who is drinking also loud/fast/not enough/spilling/making a mess?

Wrapping everything they tin learn their hands on in addition to putting it nether our tree :)

I suppose this is identify unit of measurement life. I know that when I become out alongside my girlfriends for dinner in addition to hear well-nigh the shenanigans that went downward acre I was gone I laugh. I likely express mirth until I proper substantive at to the lowest degree i time a day; our children seriously crevice me up. There are moments where I desire to clit my pilus out. {I don't genuinely have to clit my pilus out-- it is doing quite good falling out on it's own. As a defense forcefulness machinery or maybe advanced evolution, some strands are turning grayness in addition to hanging on for honey life.} I can't imagine beingness anywhere else or doing anything else. I am going to miss this fifty-fifty side past times side twelvemonth when possibly our 3-year olds don't wrap everything inwards sight, including my Target receipts in addition to their bedtime stories, placing their "presents" nether the tree. I'm going to miss our 6-year former beingness hence excited well-nigh a elementary download, purchasing Minecraft for our tablet. I'm going to miss babe #4 beingness almost vi months old. He is hence sweetness alongside his smiles in addition to hands grabbing my confront to clit it inwards in addition to facial expression at me closer. I don't intend I volition miss the incessant 3-year former whining {times two}, but maybe I will; maybe I volition express mirth at how ridiculous in addition to over the overstep in addition to constant it was for that brief catamenia inwards time.

As a piddling girl, all I wanted was to grow up, hook upward alongside a prince, convey babies, vesture ball gowns, read books, in addition to write novels. I've since discovered that fifty-fifty when you lot hook upward alongside your prince, it isn't all happily e'er after. You convey fights in addition to miscarriages in addition to arguments over finances in addition to soundless seething anger over the laundry. Your babies demand every infinitesimal in addition to hr of your 24-hour interval acre pulling your pilus in addition to destroying your house. You pour in addition to pour in addition to pour yourself into every infinitesimal of every 24-hour interval in addition to wonder if anyone notices one-half of what you lot do. Your ball gowns don't fit i twelvemonth to the next. You start three or iv books in addition to complete 2. You operate in addition to operate on the Next Great American Novel in addition to seem to learn nowhere, non that you lot would e'er notice the courage to issue it.

There is an chemical constituent of disenchantment to adulthood that I never anticipated. My woman parent is the most beautiful adult woman I convey e'er met in addition to I only wanted to hold upward her when I grew upward in addition to at i time I encounter that in that place is to a greater extent than to beingness a adult woman than what I view equally a child. She is all of the things I view she was when I was a piddling girl, but more. She is far to a greater extent than patient than I e'er thought. She gives far to a greater extent than than I e'er thought. Her beauty in addition to strength are much deeper in addition to to a greater extent than powerful than I e'er knew. I recollect sitting past times her vanity in addition to watching her learn laid upward equally a girl. The olfactory belongings of her powder, the pilus spray withal hanging inwards the air, her perfume. I was drawn to her. Drawn to finding my Mr. Darcy. Drawn to the liberty of adulthood, aid vacation balls in addition to fantastic Christmas parties where I could convey my source sip of champagne. Perhaps I demand to hold upward a piddling to a greater extent than patient in addition to the Austrian nun volition swoop inwards our line of piece of employment solid in addition to of a precipitous our children volition don matching outfits made from gorgeous curtains {not that nosotros fifty-fifty have curtains hanging inwards our house} in addition to sing inwards harmony. But life is messy. We are far to a greater extent than similar the March identify unit of measurement than the von Trapps, in addition to that is okay. I'm far to a greater extent than similar my woman parent than I e'er thought. There was a small catamenia of fourth dimension when I felt I didn't desire to grow upward to hold upward precisely similar my mother; at i time I can't imagine beingness anything else.

My prince is a submarine officer. My line of piece of employment solid total of children is all boys that can't notice matching socks or build clean shirts to relieve their lives. And our Christmases convey their ain twist of merry in addition to bright.

Happy holidays from my identify unit of measurement to yours!

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